A lot of factors are at play with how I'm feeling right now...including the following:
- The fact that I'm broke...and the family's in a kind of financial pinch
- I don't have enough funds for formal reviews, and for my completion too
- I haven't heard/seen most of my closest friends in weeks
- I'm craving to shop but can't
- I'm getting fatter
- The only time I got out of the house is when people treated me
- It's no fun playing kinect alone
- I don't know how to deal with kids so I'm not that close to my baby cousins
- There are a lot of negative talks and feelings about my grandpa being at the hospital
- There are times when tension is present between me and my siblings
- I feel really dumb with my results as I go about my self-review
- I can't release most of my emotions to anyone
- My bank account is in fall season
- I'm selling stuff but people won't buy any
- My self-esteem is plummeting...
- I'm in my inferiority complex part of my superiority-inferiority cycle
- I feel jealous of people who already got jobs/ able to get hired
- The companies I've applied to did not even send me a rejection reply
- I've got no kiddie show to cheer me up
- My art sucks
- I'm just a total mess...hahahahahahahahaha ;A;
Yeah, this is why this blog really contains random stuff...Some rants here and there but hey, this is me, my life, and I record my feelings here. Don't take away my only outlet of these emotions right now when I couldn't confide in others about this. They would probably get tired of me saying these over and over from time and time again.
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