Monday, February 28, 2011

How a single moment could reverse everything...

This is actually a follow-up post to "What Stress could do to the mind"...

That post was all about hate this, hate that...how about a little positive outlook on life?

I may be inferior in my family, friends, school, in some aspects but I still have some edge on them
I may not be able to enjoy some of my hobbies anymore but I can still find other ways to entertain myself right?
It may seem like I am left out but fate gives me opportunities to interact with other people and get to know them better this way
I may not be able to ask for something I need out of fear of being a burden but through this I can learn to be a little independent
I may not be able to afford something I want but this gives me the drive to struggle so that I will be successful in the future and be able to get anything I want
Some people may have time to complain about things they have, things that I want for myself, but they too could have wanted something I have that I cannot appreciate as well
Some people may have experienced things I haven't but that gives me room for more exploration in the future
That hundred peso worth ball pen must be lying around the house somewhere...and when I have time to turn my house upside-down, then I may be able to find it.
I may not have anyone I can tell those hates during that night but here online is a haven where I can freely express my thoughts and feelings just to share to anyone who has some free time to read what I have posted. 


You may wonder why my attitude on this changed a lot. Well, let's just say that something really good happened. And basically, this is just the way I am. Moody.


God Bless to everyone!

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Why couldn't you stay how you were?

I'm bored. To kill time...I wrote this..directly here...
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          Social classes. I have always hated it. Why should people be treated differently just because they have more money than others? When I think about this, I always remember that one person who should have been the only person I trusted from the upper classes of society. It all started three years ago...


          High school was supposed to be the time one can enjoy one's youth. It is the period when you go out of your shell and establish relationships with those of your age, the phase before you focus on what career you would take. But I was forced to go into this exclusive school where I know I would not fit at all. Why you ask? I am a hater of those in the upper class. You can say I'm just insecure or whatever but really, I am not. I just don't like the difference in treatment. We are all people, just the same. We all have organs functioning in our body to keep us alive. Material things should be of little importance. Anyway, I have no other choice because only people who graduated from this kind of school are accepted to the university I want to go into.

         I only kept a low profile so that I would not cause any kind of commotion or blunders or anything. Still, I was the one approached by someone would have never talked to otherwise.

"Good day, Miss Arianne Reviole. May I have some of your time?", asked Jamierre Coridelline, the heir for a world revered jewelry brand, Corlle. I don't know what made her approach me but I can't decline when all eyes are upon us.

"Where would you like to go Lady Coridelline?"

"I was thinking that maybe we could go into my personal quarters. Would that be in your favor?"

"It would be a privilege to set foot in your haven"

          Yes, I admit. I am being such a hypocrite. But I do not want to attract haters. There are a lot who discriminates those who do not belong here in this school. I quietly followed Jamierre to her room. Why couldn't she just say room.

"Here we are, Miss Arianne." she said as she opens the door.

          Her room was much more amazing than I have imagined. It has a really girly feel to it. Even though she is not in high school, she still keeps stuffed toys displayed. She even has a chandelier, a huge television, and ten or more racks of clothes lined neatly like in a store.

          Jamierre suddenly sat in of the chairs prepared in the receiving area of her crib. She patted the one in front of it, asking me to sit down. When I did as she asked, she gave off a sigh of relief and began ranting on me as if I was a close friend. Her way of speaking was so different than how she had been talking to me in front of other students. She seemed more comfortable and free. I was really shocked.

"I never did like any of the other students in this school. I would have preferred to study at my parents' place in France but they insisted I go here because it is more prestigious. But hey, there are no cute guys here! Even if there are, they would be either gay or with a fiancĂ©e already. Argh!"

"Umm...is that why you called me over for?" I asked

"Well, yeah. Pretty much it is. I know you have issues being around rich people. But don't worry, I am not like them, so stereotypical. I do not follow the rules of the wealthy. I live by my own principles. Which is why I am giving you the privilege of being MY best friend here in this institution"

"Why in the world do you think I need you as my friend?"

"Oh, it is not that you need me, it is what I am giving you a chance to be"

"You would drag this on until I agree to what you want wouldn't you?"

"Of course, I would. I always get what I want, one way or another"

          And that was how I assumed her best friend role in school. Only when in school apparently. But as the time goes by, I saw the good in her. She is actually fun to be with. And, yes, she is unlike others. She does not lock herself up in her room, drink tea all day in the garden, and she is not picky as to where we hang out during breaks. The role of being friends only school eventually dropped and we even hang outside of school premises. I like to be with her because I can be comfortable that she would not mock me when we enter some low grade cheap store and I would buy my stuff from there. She sometimes buy there too, saying it was really cheap and a good investment. We shared a lot of fun times together until a letter came from her parents. They asked her to befriend some transfer students to our school because their parents are important customers and business partners in the future. Jamierre, thinking about the future of their company, became close to the transferee. She assured me that we would still be friends and spend some time together but slowly, she began to drift away. Until those very people who just interfered with all the fun ruined it more than before. They demanded to not be in contact with a commoner such as me. This time, I told her to do what they wanted. Jamierre did not approved of it. Still, she was farther than before. And after our graduation, I lost all contact with her. All I know is that she went to a specialized university in preparation for taking over their company. Of course, they had the favor of those transfer students' families.

Weeks after high school, I received a letter. It was sealed with the Corlle's symbol. I quickly opened it and read what it said:

Arianne Moile, this is an order to not speak about any connection to Mademoiselle Jamierre Coridelline for it is sure to affect her image as the heir to our beloved Corlle brand. We will give you a little compensation in exchange for keeping the information to yourself. If you ever break this deal with our group, we will see to you accordingly. Merci.

A day passed and I received a hundred thousand dollars (or as I estimated it to be) in my mail. And that puts me back to the way I was before meeting Jamierre, back to a hater.

Yes, I was hurt. I trusted her to keep our friendship alive. It was only because I was a commoner that it did not work out. Still, why couldn't she give a little effort in keeping in touch with me even if our social classes are different. I am thinking that was all our friendship meant to her. Still, I wonder if I would still see her again someday
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I just felt the need to write a very short story since I haven't been writing much lately. Also, I found out that I am now kind of rusty in writing poems! Oh gosh, I was really good back in elementary and high school. So, at the very least, I don't want to have my writing skills deteriorate more than this already. I know it's not that good and the plot's a bit messed up...I guess, it is too much for boredom huh...I need to go

p.s. Just to clarify things, I am not a social class hater nor is this story based on a true one. That would be too grand for me. LOL

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Suddenly I think...

I really hate it when I get bored. When I'm bored, I tend to think about a lot of things. There are different probabilities, theories, curiosities, and questions going on in my little head. Also at these times, I tend to see things I often just neglect and set aside.

Like accepting that I am not one of those who belong in the upper class of society;

that I do not have the luxury of attending every social gathering going on around the city;

that I am not privileged enough to meet important people and actually establish a connection with them;

that I am but of the lower class, blessed only with skills I need to hone, knowledge I need to expand, and talents that I need to develop.

A feeble person who has not every time in the world to do everything she wants to do.

 Just a person who needs to suppress desires over things of beauty.

A girl who has to strive like how a wee animal works to suffice her selfishness, her goals, her dreams, her thirst for those things the wealthy are given.

Yet her mind remains focus not only on material things but for that one intangible matter she has yet to have or even at least peeked upon.

This thought sprung into my head when I saw that one of my clothes had a hole in it after a wash. I really liked it because it was one of the few items I'm proud of buying because it's really versatile and now it has an effing hole. It is just kind of a waste. I mean, I spent my savings on it and then after one use, it already got a defect. During that same day, I decided to arrange all of my clothes since summer is already near. I realized I really don't have many worthy pieces in my pile. Most of it are collared shirts. I don't have many usable accessories to match my outfits. I don't have shoes that does not look worn out. To cut it short, I don't even have the necessities I need to survive this stage of my social life. Just because we don't have enough budget for it. I even need to pay for my own equipments in school like my own stethoscope and sphygmomanometer.

Yes, I tend to be like this when I get bored. This is just one of many things I tend to think in the middle of boredom. I do not know if there is anything wrong with me but these just randomly pops out into my mind. Probably because I am a girl of few words when not stressed. LOL

Sunday, February 13, 2011

100 peso bills with UP Centennial Logo

I have 9 pieces of 100 peso bills with the UP Centennial Logo on it and I don't even know what to do with them!!

If there are any collectors out there who haven't had their hands on this item, I'm willing to sell it for 200php! Whooo~ Haha, well, if there are any...for now.>_<

Originally, I wanted ten pieces of this bill just for keeping but...sorta changed my mind since I really need more cash. Anyway, another rambling is over.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Another Haul during a Day Out

For another trip to Forever 21 with my bestest friend, Jecka, I was able to get another haul from the shop. I really wasn't there to shop but I needed a new cardigan, and was able to find interesting pieces so I ended up buying some. Also, since I want and need new socks, I also got one.


It was a bit tiring but still tons of fun. Can't wait for another day out with beshy. I just hope that I'll have enough money as to not use my card in buying things...XP