Yes, you should JUST DO IT

I finally got finished with my cases today and I think it's worth a blog.

We've been trying to accomplish everything for almost a year now. Today is particularly eventful. First off, I went to school to pick up my remaining case forms from my classmates who got them signed. I thought I already had everything but there was one missing. We looked for it but to no avail. I decided to just reprint it and have it signed myself. As I rode a jeepney, some woman with a baby boarded the vehicle and sat near me. She was wearing a really short shorts and had a lot of lesions on her thigh up to her feet. How could anyone miss it when it's there for everyone to see? All of the people who got in after her did not want to sit beside her. I admit I am one of them and so when she kept on sliding beside me I alighted from the jeep. When I got off, I hurriedly poured what alcohol I have to my outer thigh up to my legs. My pants was soaking wet when I got on another jeep. The other passengers might have found it really weird but I wouldn't risk getting the skin problem. I mean, I already have a lot going on my skin I DO NOT WANT TO ADD ANY MORE. The first thing I did when I got home was change my pants, clean my thigh and leg which I consider to have been "in contact" with the woman's skin. I was tempted to use some antibiotics I have lying around but I decided not to.

I ate lunch before I headed out again to have my missing and reprinted case form signed again. Going to the Philippines General Hospital, the fastest way to go is to ride the LRT. That's 23php off my pocket. I arrived earlier than I had expected but it was fine since I ended up going in circles in that hospital. My classmates said that the trauma ward was ward 8 but I was certain that ward 8 was the orthopedic ward. I first looked for ward 8 and guess what? I was right. Dang it...I had to go to the other side and tried my luck at the Delivery Room. Tired of walking, I just asked some personnel inside and they directed me to ward 14a, trauma ward. Finally, I got there looking all exhausted and there were a lot of people waiting for a certain doctor. I approached the nurses' station and didn't recognize my instructor right away. She was wearing her hair differently and had her glasses on. She sounded a little irritated and told me to wait for 30 minutes. I obliged but I had to wait for an hour before she was finished with endorsement and all. I got my papers signed at half past three. Rushing, I headed for school.

Good heavens! My luck hadn't run out. I easily spotted a jeepney that would pass through my destination. I boarded the jeep and as I look out the window, I saw another "Just Do It" sign by Nike. I guess that makes it the 4th time since I started reviewing. It seems that it appears once a month as a reminder. I don't know what I shoujd "Just Do" though.

Anyway, when I got to school, there were loads of people crowding the office. I lined up my paper for our college secretary's signature. Upon getting that done, the other officials said they wouldn't be accepting anymore papers so I just went out and spotted my friends on the hallway. They were discussing some problems regarding missing case forms. I stayed and listened for a while. I was one of the victims but their case was worse. As we talk, they said that the fee had gone down and there were still some people at the office so I went to see what was going on. And...STRIKE! They were still getting papers signed. I gave them mine and waited for hours for it to get done. I was getting really impatient since I have opened lesson slots that day. I can't afford to get late and get another penalty. The remaining people there and I had to go through a lot of hurdles to get everything as fast as we can. At 6:00, we finally got hold of everything. I accompanied one of my batchmates on the way out, rode on the same vehicle, and saw her off at her stop. She wasn't really used to going home alone at night at that hour and it was already dark! I guess we owe it to the "-ber" months.

My feet almost grew wings as I hurried home. Another thanks to God, my first lesson was left opened and I still have time to close it without incurring any violation of the rules. I got to eat and rest even for a while.

So my night went as it always does, a lesson, a little read, and then sleep.

It's just that I realized that if I didn't have the patience to wait to have my missing case signed, all my case form released, and to endure the long ride home, I would still have a lot going on in my mind. I guess sometimes, especially when you're having some doubts, you should JUST DO IT!

Stress must be piling up

Recently,  a lot of things are coming in to my mind. Sometimes it's related to my studies, other times to my social needs. 

Let me just rant again here in a world where I can just bare my feelings and shout them out loud without being mindful of how people would think. 

As I type using my phone, these are what's going through my head:

• Why in the world is my self-esteem this low? I've been really insecure the past days. I see how better my classmates are in our review but I am not satisfied with how I'm doing. I see how my friends are growing up and startrting to become adults but here I am, still shut-in in the comforts of my own world. I see how some of them are entering phases appropriate for our development but here I am, still a kid refusing to grow up. I am going to be responsible for someone's life soon so how can I act and feel like this?
• Am I really feeling the weight of the career I chose? I still couldn't give up my addictions...anime. Some may view it childish but for some reason, I can't stop. It's become an opioid for me. I need to focus. I need to concentrate. I just can't get by without even a single episode in a day.
• Why am I burdened with so many skin problems and not enough financial capacity to seek treatment. I had a major breakout of acne when I started reviewing. It's probably one of the contributing factors for my first problem. I hate it when people point it out...It's obvious that I am aware of my condition better than anyone. I need treatment but cannot afford one.
• Is it just me or whenever I try to befriend others, they just toss me aside when more of my other friends comes into the scene? I have joined and even founded some groups but I always end up being the odd one out. A situation like this was when I introduced a friend to a certain group and she ended up being called for more, beung sought out more, invited  more, and they even spend more time together. This is not limited to one friend...there was a lot of them. Am I really that hard to be friends with?

Well, my eyes are giving up on me, as well as my phone. Just understand these outburst of random thoughts since I can't really express them in person...maybe someday I will be able to...

Late Post: GKF Double (Triple) Surprise!

Date: April 6, 2013
Venue: Mall of Asia

I am not sure why we gathered that day but if my memory serves me right, it was for the celebration of two (or was it three?) members of our group.

We decided to go to MoA since we rarely go there together. It's like a day out/celebration/pre-graduation gathering. Some of our friends were late so we just took some photos while waiting.

I had a wardrobe malfunction in those shoes...oTL

As usual, we had a kris kringle and bought our gifts right then and there. It was hard not letting the other person know who you've got.

For lunch, we ate at Racks. It was CG and Oliv's treat.

We couldn't help it...we were hungry and still waiting for our orders.

It really reminds me of beer...I don't drink beer btw

CHEERS!

We left Racks at around sundown. Yes! We were near manila bay and got out at sundown.

A lot of people wanted to catch a glimpse of this view at the observation deck.

We still didn't go home after eating. We went to the seaside and talked about random things for a while. Enjoying the night breeze while watching the horizon was really relaxing (except for the sea roaches...ugh).

If I had a better camera, this would have turned out better than...white dots on a line.

And so was our adventure for that time! :)

Review: Nylon School Bag

Here is a different school bag. It's material and style is different from the first one.

 The material is nylon. It's still water resistant. The strap is of different material though. 

This is a nice pick for sporty types. It's also easy to clean and a little carelessness wouldn't do that much immediate damage. Here are some other festures of the bag:

The logo/brand of the bag is promptly embroidered on the lower right corner.

There is a little pocket in the front between the straps. You could put your ID here, or maybe some cards. I'd probably place my band-aids here. :P

Then here is the bigger pocket in front of the bag. It has multiple card holders, two for pens, and another bigger pocket. Then in the middle is a bigger zip-on one.

Inside the main compartment, you can see the water bottle holder. It could contain both hot & cold since it has an insulation lining. The problem is, it sort of gets a bit limited when the bag's support flap is lowered.

Like the leather one, it also has a latch-on pocket where you could put papers or your laptop. It could only hold the small one though.

Then the support flap for the bottom of the bag. It doesn't have a secret pocket.

And here's the bag when you carry it! My bangs are covering my face...lol

Here are my scores for this product:

Material: 7/10

Carrying Capacity: 8/10

Looks: 8/10

Weight: 9/10 

Again, special thanks to Senbazuru and it's nice owner, Francine! :)

Review: Leather school bag

With my review class using legal size papers, I needed a new bag that could hold my documents. So I present to you, my leather school bag!

It's a really well-made bag that makes me feel younger but still look a little formal. I know that most people in Japan would not use this bag on days without class but I am attending a "class" LOL. Anyway, this is not real leather btw. I believe it's just synthetic. I would not recommend it for people who cannot handle their things carefully since this material can be quite troublesome if not handled correctly. Well, let me show you some of the bag's features.

 First is the latch-on pocket inside where you could put a small laptop or maybe some papers you do not want scattered around your bag. Then the water bottle holder. I tried putting mine in it. It's a bit small but the diameter fits snugly. Also, it may not be visible in this photo but there's a secret compartment underneath the bottom flap where you could place your phone or some extra money.

Next is the big pocket in front of the bag. It has another small one inside and two pen holders. I use this for my ID and the body strap. I have a pen case so I'm not really using the holders.

Here's a photo of me using the bag. I already put some things on the hanger. It's a stuffed key chain I got from one of my friends and the other is from teen vogue that says "chic".

Here are my scores for this product:

Material: 8/10
Carrying Capacity: 8/10
Looks: 9/10
Weight: 7/10 (with nothing in it, it's already quite heavy)

Special thanks to Senbazuru shop and its nice owner, Francine! I'm looking forward to our next transaction. :)

My Past Month...

...was really more of a routine than events. All I was doing was going to my review classes then back home to study more and attend to my online work. Even though it was like a cycle, each day was not the same as the day before.

So far, I've been in the review for more than a month and I feel like there has been some change in how I view my upcoming licensure examinations. One thing is for sure, I still have my goal unchanged. It may be a very difficult road as I need to balance studies, work, and leisure, but the outcome I want is all I need.

I might find it hard to blog about certain events but I will definitely allot some time to catch up.

Sword Girls Online Minishoot

Date: July 14, 2013
Venue: Ninoy Aquino Parks & Wildlife

It's quite late but let me just share our 1st mini shoot. It was my first time going to a shoot without any close friend but fortunately, these guys were great! A little rain teased us a bit but it didn't stop us from marching on to our goal. Photo credits to Angels & Cupid Photography, Edward Interia & Co., and of course, to Sir Stan dela Cruz.

Here are some solo shots of all the characters present.

First up, Child Cinia:

Next, is yours truly, Crimson Witch Cinia:

Here is Aimi

And Nanai Highcastle:

Of course, our favorite detective, Asmis Hara:

I can't seem to find Scarlet Mage's and Seven's photo...I will add it here to when they're up.

I hope you enjoyed the shots!

A very busy Father's Day~

My eldest brother and I went out early in the morning to buy some doughnuts  and some ingredients for Pesto at Trinoma.

The line was already quite long by the time we arrived at J.CO. We had to wait for some time outside before we could go in and have our orders taken. We bought two boxes, one a dozen each, and gave one box to my uncle when we got home.

While in our grocery shopping, it was really hilarious that we reused SM plastic bags to pack what we bought from Landmark supermarket. I could never get over how we seemed like troll customers back then. I was laughing so hard I forgot to take a photo.

Upon arriving home, I started helping out to prepare the ingredients for the Pesto. I suck but I guess it all turned out well. The end product was good. And to think that today is the last day for me to go all out on food before I start working out again. Anyway, that's a different story.

So in celebration of Father's Day, we just ate and hang out at home with our dad. :)

To my dad, who raised us with all his might and also assumed the mother role when mom died when I was in high school,  and to all the Dads out there, especially those of my readers, HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!  XOXOXOXOXO

Rays of Hope Coming from Lucido-L, A Must-Have Hair Product

I naturally have very dry skin and hair. I've used a lot of different products for my hair but nothing seems to address the problem. The dryness keeps me from letting my hair grow longer since it just doesn't look right. It was heaven sent that I learn about Lucido-L Hair Make Treatment Oil - Straight as I browse through Ms. Tricia Gosingtian's blog. This product would be a huge help in keeping my hair's moisture and then I could let it grow some more!

With the dryness of my hair on one hand, doing curls is on the other. As a child, I've been in love with curls. And as I grow up, I like to try different hairstyles with it. But it's really hard to make my hair be all fluffy and bouncy since it's really thin. It would just end up like little ribbon coils hanging from my head. This is why having the Lucido-L Hair Make Styling Milk Curl is a must-have for me. The love for curls must have led me to being one of Ms. Tricia's followers. I just love how she looks and how she styles her hair in different curls most of the time.
 Just looking at these lovely curls makes me want to hold them with my own hands...

                 

I hope I could try those same products too~ Japan always made things I need and want but could only look at.


 ♥♥♥ アンジエ

Hikikomori Mode Problems

Soo...lately, I've done nothing but stay at home and live my unemployed life. I wake up, take a bath, eat, go online, read/review, watch some shows, eat, every other day goes to the hospital, eat, go online, read/review, watch some shows, take a bath, sleep, and the cycle just repeats. And this way of living is slowly eating away my stability.

A lot of factors are at play with how I'm feeling right now...including the following:

• The fact that I'm broke...and the family's in a kind of financial pinch
• I don't have enough funds for formal reviews, and for my completion too
• I haven't heard/seen most of my closest friends in weeks
• I'm craving to shop but can't
• I'm getting fatter
• The only time I got out of the house is when people treated me
• It's no fun playing kinect alone
• I don't know how to deal with kids so I'm not that close to my baby cousins
• There are a lot of negative talks and feelings about my grandpa being at the hospital
• There are times when tension is present between me and my siblings
• I feel really dumb with my results as I go about my self-review
• I can't release most of my emotions to anyone
• My bank account is in fall season
• I'm selling stuff but people won't buy any
• My self-esteem is plummeting...
• I'm in my inferiority complex part of my superiority-inferiority cycle
• I feel jealous of people who already got jobs/ able to get hired
• The companies I've applied to did not even send me a rejection reply
• I've got no kiddie show to cheer me up
• My art sucks
• I'm just a total mess...hahahahahahahahaha ;A;

Yeah, this is why this blog really contains random stuff...Some rants here and there but hey, this is me, my life, and I record my feelings here. Don't take away my only outlet of these emotions right now when I couldn't confide in others about this. They would probably get tired of me saying these over and over from time and time again.

Sword Girls Online Group Cosplay Debut

Date: April 14, 2013
Venue: Ozine Fest 2013, SM Megamall

This is the first time I joined a group cosplay and I really had a hard time keeping up with the commitment. I crammed the costume, and ended up making an awful lot of mistakes but I promise that next time, it would be better. We still need a lot of participants so we're still recruiting~ If you're a cosplayer in the Philippines, we would like to welcome you to the empire~! Here are some photos from our little meet-up..I went as the Crimson Witch...

When we first met-up during the event

Three different Cinia

The past, the present, and the future

A hard to defeat boss, Leifang Henlifei

Kawaii, kawaii, Clarice Althem

Last group pic credits to Matrix Shino Productions

University Graduation

Date: April 12, 2013
Venue: Manila Hotel

Sooo....this post ought to have been posted last saturday but I was cramming a costume so I'm only able to blog it right now.

*ehem*

I finally graduated from university!!! Yaaaayy!!! I have earned my degree in Nursing. Next stop would be the Board Examinations~

With my tito, tita, and the little kids~ Just before we left the house

On our way...There was heavy traffic on every street so I was really anxious that I'd be late...But then again, I wasn't. LOL

FINALLY!!! Got my tassel on the right side~ Wooot~

Also got my diploma both in Filipino and in English

Nixie & I being vain during the ceremony since there were lots of management students...we were just bored.

My whole outfit! Before we left the hotel...

At the post-graduation celebration...my eldest brother wasn't there cause he's working abroad~ 

I was wearing fake bangs here...Also, if it seemed like my hair is not black, it is. The hotel's lighting is a bit tweaking it off~

And I am now part of the unemployed fresh graduates of our country~!! Hoooray!! I'm currently starting to get some reviews done so I wouldn't be on the lowest of the low during the actual reviews and the exam per se. For glory!!