[1]I just read this blog on the net and got hit on the spot with what other people say about their experiences. I just thought that I should stop one of my habits when it comes to relationships.
[2]Since this is my moody phase of the month, I came to a realization that I don't really have something I'm really devoted for...or so I thought. I am really hooked on photography and someday, I would really like to own a much better camera (hopefully, a DSLR) than the digital cameras we share at home. Holding a camera is something that I could do all day long and don't get tired of it unless somebody ticks me off.
Right now, I don't have a good camera but I would still like to take pictures of different things.
[3]Fashion is another things that got me good recently. I may not have the body to look good in any type of clothing right now, but, I know what works for me and I'm planning on changing my wardrobe slowly to fit my personality more. All I have right now are some dull plain clothes that would make someone look too lazy to sport a more appropriate outfit. I know it's hard to pull something off especially when I need to be mindful of what I wear since I only commute to and from school. Obstacles are there to be surpassed so I'm going to do my best to buy right clothes appropriate for my body type and for my age. I mentioned my age because I realized that most of my clothes doesn't make me look like I'm eighteen but a twelve year old pre-teen. I'd like to look young enough to be appealing and mature enough to be seen as someone responsible and trustworthy.
[4]Although anime and manga are stuffs I'm addicted to, I need to stop trying to be some half-assed seiyuu when I speak to people. I tend to use different voices depending on who I am talking to. It just makes me creepy and weird. I need to get that out of my system. My real voice is sort of "whole" that you wouldn't know, unless I sing, that I can reach high notes well being a soprano and all.
These are an awful lot of realizations...I really am quite the blabbermouth even on the internet huh. Well, I still don't have a life and honestly, I don't even know what to do to have one. Guess I just have to search randomly...So, cutting it here. -out-
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Ruined Mood
I woke up quite late today since we were out yesterday with my cousins at megamall. I was in a really good mood since the night was cooler than the previous nights because of the rain and today is Mother's Day. I greeted my friends' moms and were really having fun conversations using my phone and it all just had to be ruined by a piece of scissors.
It was about a week ago when I cleaned my stuffs in the room. I had to rearrange things a little because I need better access to those I often use. Now, people here at home are saying they can't find a scissor they left stuck in one of the compartments I am using. Honestly, I didn't see any scissors while I was cleaning my things and if I ever have, it would merely be impossible for me to throw it away. What would I do to a pair of scissors? I have two I bought myself. I just don't want this very mistrusting environment. When I say I didn't see, I DID NOT SEE IT. Why does one have to repeat it over and over? They always tell me that I am too messy with my things and when I clean things up they accuse me of throwing away THEIR things that are in MY place? When I lose my things, they just say it was because I didn't keep it in the proper place and when it comes to theirs I am said to be the culprit. That's just simply unfair.
Ahhh.....now my head hurts. I'm cutting this here.
It was about a week ago when I cleaned my stuffs in the room. I had to rearrange things a little because I need better access to those I often use. Now, people here at home are saying they can't find a scissor they left stuck in one of the compartments I am using. Honestly, I didn't see any scissors while I was cleaning my things and if I ever have, it would merely be impossible for me to throw it away. What would I do to a pair of scissors? I have two I bought myself. I just don't want this very mistrusting environment. When I say I didn't see, I DID NOT SEE IT. Why does one have to repeat it over and over? They always tell me that I am too messy with my things and when I clean things up they accuse me of throwing away THEIR things that are in MY place? When I lose my things, they just say it was because I didn't keep it in the proper place and when it comes to theirs I am said to be the culprit. That's just simply unfair.
Ahhh.....now my head hurts. I'm cutting this here.
Friday, April 29, 2011
Released from Agony yet Another begins
[inhales & exhales]
Finally, our battery examination is over and done with. I've been cramming for two weeks and I finally found the meaning behind all those hard work. Even if I wasn't really confident with some of my answers in the exam, I kind of feel good about it. But, of course, I can never be really sure.
It was really surprising when I saw the set of questions. They didn't follow the number of items given during the orientation and some of the subjects I read wasn't even there! Well, it's not like I really read those so I guess it's fine. Oh! The algebra part was really a bummer. It's very basic and I kind of messed up four items. I couldn't remember what was supposed to be done in that part.
Now, all I have to do is wait for the results and hope that God would let me pass this exam. This is another hard part. It really gets to me when I am anxious as to what the results would be. Remember the feeling of waiting for the admission results of your first choice university? Yep. It's the same feeling I'm feeling right now. Although I know that I can't help any of it anymore since it's done and I just have to accept it, this feeling still lingers.
I'm just going to divert this feeling to excitement for tomorrow's party and our upcoming photoshoot. Pray for us!
Finally, our battery examination is over and done with. I've been cramming for two weeks and I finally found the meaning behind all those hard work. Even if I wasn't really confident with some of my answers in the exam, I kind of feel good about it. But, of course, I can never be really sure.
It was really surprising when I saw the set of questions. They didn't follow the number of items given during the orientation and some of the subjects I read wasn't even there! Well, it's not like I really read those so I guess it's fine. Oh! The algebra part was really a bummer. It's very basic and I kind of messed up four items. I couldn't remember what was supposed to be done in that part.
Now, all I have to do is wait for the results and hope that God would let me pass this exam. This is another hard part. It really gets to me when I am anxious as to what the results would be. Remember the feeling of waiting for the admission results of your first choice university? Yep. It's the same feeling I'm feeling right now. Although I know that I can't help any of it anymore since it's done and I just have to accept it, this feeling still lingers.
I'm just going to divert this feeling to excitement for tomorrow's party and our upcoming photoshoot. Pray for us!
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Freeing the Butterflies
I know~ If I have time to blog here, I probably should get back to my studies for the exam. I really need to free myself of the anxiety I feel right now. It's already the 25th and only four more days before the actual battle. What I'm worried about is not that that I haven't studied all of my subjects yet, but that we had a really bad foundations in some subjects. I am grateful though that the others aren't as bad as one of them but there are still some major subjects that needs some follow up review.
Although I am not not confident in my abilities to pass the exam, as sometimes I pass exams without studying at all, it's normal to get worried because this exam will determine if I have the right to continue on with my course and I placed it as one of the standards for me to continue on to pursuing medicine.
I guess I just have to believe in myself more, pray to God, and hope that everything turns out for the better.
Although I am not not confident in my abilities to pass the exam, as sometimes I pass exams without studying at all, it's normal to get worried because this exam will determine if I have the right to continue on with my course and I placed it as one of the standards for me to continue on to pursuing medicine.
I guess I just have to believe in myself more, pray to God, and hope that everything turns out for the better.
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Precious & Rift
Wew...these kind of things just kept on playing in my mind right now. It's like a one-man role play inside my brain. Need to get the ideas out~
"I am the king of my own world but she is the goddess I bow down to. She had been the strength in all my endeavors and a companion in my joy. So tell me, why? Why must she leave my side? Is it because we are too dissimilar? I am withdrawn and she is open to all. She has always worn a smile on her face yet I hardly ever did. I pointed out things that were wrong about a situation when she revealed all the splendor it actually brings. We are like light and dark. Without the light, the dark would would never exist. I would never exist. I could never live without her. She, whom I have already lost, my friend, my darling, my love, forever will stay in my heart and soul."
In these lines, I see a man who has so much love for the woman who has been her guide through his life. I can just see him all depressed and suffering, yet he manages to accept it in the end as he organizes his thoughts. Even though the woman would never come back, he just accepted that she was gone but she will be forever remembered.
"Even plates, no matter how close they are right now, tend to separate. That is how we are. We have gone through the storm that destroyed millions of dreams. We have endured the torture of the tyrant who took the lives of many. We have walked through a blissful scenery. With all the different things we have experienced, we now stand where we are right now - before a rift. Yes, we were close because we had been travelling together for a long time, but as mere humans, we are fragile. Even the earth needs to change its connections, varying the possibilities of its fate. It must be same for humans who only leech off of nature. We tend to get away from one to another. We separate. We reconnect. We trust. We hate. We love. No matter how close, we separate."
This one, I see is a statement from a girl. Her character, if I may describe it, is someone who would stick to facts and reality. She judges things according to the data she has. She lost a person she was supposed to be with for a very long time. I don't know how they drifted apart but it seems like she actually misses the person. They shared all hardships and happiness but they separated in the end. Isn't it a little sad? Just to have multiple possibilities with fate, the other person needs to live? There are already a lot of possibilities you can have with a single person and it all depends on the choices you make. I am kind of hating the character I thought of in this thought.
Okay...I had it all off of my mind now..I just can't forget about these lines.
"I am the king of my own world but she is the goddess I bow down to. She had been the strength in all my endeavors and a companion in my joy. So tell me, why? Why must she leave my side? Is it because we are too dissimilar? I am withdrawn and she is open to all. She has always worn a smile on her face yet I hardly ever did. I pointed out things that were wrong about a situation when she revealed all the splendor it actually brings. We are like light and dark. Without the light, the dark would would never exist. I would never exist. I could never live without her. She, whom I have already lost, my friend, my darling, my love, forever will stay in my heart and soul."
In these lines, I see a man who has so much love for the woman who has been her guide through his life. I can just see him all depressed and suffering, yet he manages to accept it in the end as he organizes his thoughts. Even though the woman would never come back, he just accepted that she was gone but she will be forever remembered.
"Even plates, no matter how close they are right now, tend to separate. That is how we are. We have gone through the storm that destroyed millions of dreams. We have endured the torture of the tyrant who took the lives of many. We have walked through a blissful scenery. With all the different things we have experienced, we now stand where we are right now - before a rift. Yes, we were close because we had been travelling together for a long time, but as mere humans, we are fragile. Even the earth needs to change its connections, varying the possibilities of its fate. It must be same for humans who only leech off of nature. We tend to get away from one to another. We separate. We reconnect. We trust. We hate. We love. No matter how close, we separate."
This one, I see is a statement from a girl. Her character, if I may describe it, is someone who would stick to facts and reality. She judges things according to the data she has. She lost a person she was supposed to be with for a very long time. I don't know how they drifted apart but it seems like she actually misses the person. They shared all hardships and happiness but they separated in the end. Isn't it a little sad? Just to have multiple possibilities with fate, the other person needs to live? There are already a lot of possibilities you can have with a single person and it all depends on the choices you make. I am kind of hating the character I thought of in this thought.
Okay...I had it all off of my mind now..I just can't forget about these lines.
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